Too much time

最近誰も遊んでくれない。
そんで、時間を持て余しすぎて、寂しくなってしまう～

誰かを誘っても、昼御飯すら一緒に食べてくれない。
ある友達に聞いてみたら、「皆はシャイだから、ジェイがいるとビビてしまう」って言われた。
威圧感だろうー？
まあ、典型的な日本人ってことやね。
もちろん、みんなってわけじゃないけど。。。そういうのって、ほんまムカつく！！

どんだけ頑張っても「ジェイって誰もが知ってるんやけど、皆親友にはなってくれなくて知り合いはたくさんで真の友はちょっぴり」って気がする。

日本人は「友達」という言葉の意味合いがおぼろげだと思う。

少なくても、ギターはまだ一緒にいてくれる。
ギターは忙しくないし、逃げないし！（笑）
夜中までさえ、ギターを弾いている。

ジェイ☆

(English)
No one has been hanging out with me these days.
So I have too much free time and have become lonely.
I invite some people to do stuff sometimes, but they say that they were too busy and such.
They couldn't even make time for something as simple as eating lunch with each other. (yeah it's terrible)

I asked one of my friends about it, and they said that "I sometimes make them nervous because they are shy."

Yeah, that kind of thing is typical for a Japanese person.
And of course that doesn't apply to everyone... but I find that kind of thing quite irritating!

No matter how much I try, it feels like I'm "The Jay that everyone knows, but doesn't become close friends with. I have few real friends and a world full of acquaintances."
And above that, I feel that a Japanese person's idea of a "friend" is quite faint/shallow.

But at least my guitar keeps me company! lol